So I haven't written in a while and I've finally had some decent thoughts, so here goes.
It's funny how life changes. One semester in Europe finds some friendships dismal and others full of life. A new semester brings fresh heartaches and high flying joys. Learning more things about myself than I did in a relationship or even in Europe just by being alone again.
I know I always talk boy problems on here but I've finally decided something for myself.
I am terribly excited about Perth. Probably just as much as I was for Vienna. And when I get excited about something I tend to think about that and only that. So why should I do that to another boy, when that clearly pushed the last one away? Not that anyone is banging on my door, no boy is blowin' up my phone phone (Ke$ha reference anyone?). But I definitely need to stop looking. I have several great guy friends at school, that if I were being honest with myself would never work out, and that's what they need to remain. Because like my mother says, it's always good to have guy friends around. (especially since I miss David Corlew and Nicholas Keel like crazy all the dang time) So yeah. That's my resolution. Plus I'm not entirely sure my heart is ready for another relationship so quickly. I need to be happy with myself instead of basing my worth on what a male thinks of me.
I hate going to a Church of Christ school though. You have to be engaged before you graduate it seems... I'm no where near that mentally or literally. So does that mean I fail getting a degree (of the MRS variety)? I guess. 22 is just two short years away from me right now, and I would have to grow up so much before I could even consider attaching myself to another human being for the rest of my life.
God works in just the right ways, so I know the perfect one will come into my life when it's right and perfect and wonderful. I just have to keep telling myself that in a school full of mushy couples with rings on their fingers...
This is a duh entry. So don't say I told you so.
Excitements:
-DeltaNANANA (this Friday at 7 in Alumni!!)
-Perth Australia!!!!
-Pledging (yes, strange but I really love any excuse to hang out with my sisters!!)
-SPRING BREAK (because a. I miss my family, especially my sister b. DISNEY c. HARRY POTTER WORLD ;D )
-Potential Freed visit with my favoritest cousin ever??
-Two upcoming TPAC visits
-Owl City concert
-Winterfest (strange yes, but completely free to me!!!)
-Singrama (whether I get hostess or not)
-Formal (wherever that is)
-Possible Chicago visit to see my favorite boy ever!
-Possibly internship with photographer??
-More engagement/wedding/baby/people photo shoots!!!
So I have a great life. One I'm particularly excited about. :)
3 remarks:
Looks like your head is in the right place these days. Make sure you bury it in the Word and let GOD lead you. He will lead you to that right someone as well . . .
I love you muchly baby girl and I miss you!
While I wouldn't change getting married young for anything, it is not for everyone, even if everyone thinks it is! As you said, God will bring someone to pursue you when the time is right.
I was thinking, maybe we can do a photo shoot sometime when you're in town and the weather's warmer. I want to build up my portfolio with some people in case I decide to do something with photography, and I know you do too (though you may be interning somewhere? That's exciting!).
Sounds like a plan! We'll do it sometime. And I would HIGHLY recommend assisting in weddings as much as possible before shooting one on your own, or even just as a primary photography. I've helped with two weddings but I would want to do more before I even considered my own wedding photography business. Things get get pretty stressful! Right now I'm toying of the idea of doing portrait-type stuff on the side (engagement pics and such) sometime in the future.
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